Happy Birthday Boys!

I cannot believe that my babies are one! I haven't told everyone this story, but I think back when we decided to have another baby, I had only told Brad that I think I would like to have twins. He said that he thought that it would be neat also. I never thought I really ever would, but I decided that I would pray to my Heavenly Father and let him know that we would love to bring twins into our family if he felt that we would do a good job. I kind of didn't think about it again until after we found out I was pregnant. I kept having this little feeling that I was pregnant with twins, but I thought I was just being my usual nerdy self and getting my hopes up. I only told Brad of course and we would talk about it for a few minutes and then we would go on to say how goofy we were being, like we were pregnant with twins. I think it was exactly a week before my first appt. at the OBGYN that I had a very vivid dream, and we were at the Dr. and we were having our first ultra sound, and the doctor told us we were having twins! I woke up and told Brad that morning. We both kind of thought that I was just dreaming that because I had kept talking about it. I told my mom later that day about my dream, and she just kind of laughed and we talked about something else. Well we went to our appt. the next week and it was exactly like my dream, I still remember the look on Brads face! He looked shocked, but I just laughed because deep down inside I already knew. I feel like Heavenly Father was preparing me so I wouldn't have a nervous breakdown in the office! LOL My prayers were definitely answered that day! I still remember the day my sweet boys were born, like it was yesterday! I was nervous and scared and so excited! I was surrounded by all of our loving family waiting for their arrival. Their big brother Justice was so excited and couldn't wait to see his two baby brothers! It was time to go back to the operating room, because they deliver multiples there in case of emergency c section. I started pushing and not long after I gave birth to Talon. He was born October 14th at 4:50 P.M. I didn't really get to see him before they started checking him and they then continued to break my water and Cardon's umbilical cord started coming out first which is dangerous. Everyone in there started to look nervous. They tried to use the the vacuum and that wasn't working, so they decided they needed to do a emergency c section. One of the two Dr.'s that was in there told Brad that he needed to go down to the nursery with Talon. They needed to get him hooked up to some stuff. I couldn't believe that I was going to be in there having a c section by myself. I saw Talon as they walked by and he was so cute! Brad was so torn having to leave me, but of course he wanted to go with his baby! They pretty much heaved me to the other table and it all started. Everyone was hustling around and I was terrified. They told me when Cardon was born at 5:00 P.M. and I didn't hear him crying. I kept asking how is my baby? And I could tell that something was wrong and they were trying to comfort me, but it didn't work. I asked again and again. Finally I heard my sweet Cardon, and I saw him as they rushed by me with him to go to the nursery. Little did I know during that time they had to bag him twice, because he was not breathing. They started stitching me all up, and I looked back over my shoulder to see my mom in the room. That was such a reliving sight. I needed her in there more that she will ever know! I then went back to the room where all of my stuff was. I saw my sweet husband, and precious little Justice. Brad looked so scared and was so sweet to me. We didn't really know what was going on. All Brad knew was that his boys were hooked up to all sorts of machines and didn't know what to think. They took me down to my room on the Mother Baby floor and I was aching inside, because I wanted to see and hold my babies. The doctors from the NICU (Newborn Intensive Care Unit) kept coming in and updating us, and all I could do was cry. Later that evening I was bound and determined that I could get up into a wheel chair and go see them. The nurse advised me against it, but I am stubborn as most of you know. So I gave it my all and it was the worst pain I have ever felt, and I almost passed out! The nurse told me I needed to lay down and wait until morning. I was so, so sad. Brad and our family were all so comforting through this. I was able to go down the next morning and see them. Oh what a special moment that was. Words can't even describe the way I felt. Oh what a blessing these boys are to our family. They had to stay in the NICU for 10 days. I went over there every possible moment I could, but it was very important to spend time with Justice too. Thank you to my Mom for being able to take off work to take care of Justice, and all of the others who helped. It was so hard to leave them there, but it was for the best obviously. What a great day it was the day we finally got to take them home! They have been such great babies and a wonderful addition to our family. We enjoy watching them grow and learn new things each day. Justice adores them and is a great big brother, and they love him so much! I hope Talon and Cardon have a great first birthday and always know how much we all love them! Thank you Heavenly Father for showing me that prayers can be answered!